My oh my it has been ages since my last blog post, as well as my last youtube vlog. I don't even know how many followers I still have. At this point, they have already probably given up on me, which I totally understand. With that being said I'm debating whether to start a whole new blog completely or just pick up again here. Decisions, decisions.
Things have been so crazy this year and I just haven't been able to put forth the effort to share any of my TTC story and blog or do video like I would hope. Honestly, I just haven't had anything to report on that front, and therefore no inspiration to write. Even after starting my FB TTC page, I just don't feel lead to post anything, even though I check in there regularly with the rest of this community from heartbreaks of BNF's and losses to elation with BFPs and births. I see God working, and know he is working...I just haven't felt it in my realm lately, and I don't like admitting that.
Looking back, a year ago I was in my TWW (two week wait) after my last FET (frozen embryo transfer). I remember being so cautious and so relaxed during that time. I prayed daily that God would answer our hearts desire and make us parents. We just couldn't believe that he would make us go through the heartbreak of another BFN or even worse, another miscarriage. By 6 days past transfer I was already getting BFPs on every HPT I took, and since we put back 3 blasts we felt pretty good that odds were in our favor this time. Then sadly, that pregnancy ended up with another miscarriage. We were left with that huge cloud over our heads and the big question...WHY?
Now, this year we had 2 failed adoption attempts and we haven't been back to the RE since October last year when we had our loss.
I am still holding out hope, but I won't lie...it is fading with every wacky cycle I have. Don't get me wrong, my faith is not fading in God, because I trust him. I'm just losing hope that I am ever going to be a mom.
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Monday, June 25, 2012
Two weeks working under my belt
Well, today started week three of my new job. I absolutely love being back on the work force and am enjoying my job, the company and the people I work with. Unfortunately since it has been so long since I have been in a work environment, I ended up getting sick last week so I have been battling that since Wednesday.
Things have been neglected since starting the job...housework, my love of cooking big elaborate meals for dinner, and my blogging and vlogging and Facebook, Twitter and Pinterest; oh how I miss my social networking communities. I'm hoping that I can soon find my groove and find time to do everything since I enjoy everything.
I have been wrapped up in the phenom of "Fifty Shades of Grey" and now that I am on the third book, I am wondering what I am going to do when I get to that last page. I could do what my cousin-in-law is doing and start reading them all over again. Her theory is that going cold turkey from Christian Grey could be hazardous to your health....and quite frankly I think I agree with that sentiment. I would venture to say that these books are helping many with their BD sessions...although unfortunately we haven't had much luck of that on this end with me being tired from the job and sick with this cold.
Thank you to those of you who still keep up with me. It means a lot that I'm on your hearts and in your minds. An update on my cycle is that I am CD24 and there has been no sign of ovulation so far. I have not started my progesterone cream because I'm hoping that with the LA Diet my cycles might regulate themselves. However, if I don't start AF by CD35 I will get back on the progesterone cream therapy.
Things have been neglected since starting the job...housework, my love of cooking big elaborate meals for dinner, and my blogging and vlogging and Facebook, Twitter and Pinterest; oh how I miss my social networking communities. I'm hoping that I can soon find my groove and find time to do everything since I enjoy everything.
I have been wrapped up in the phenom of "Fifty Shades of Grey" and now that I am on the third book, I am wondering what I am going to do when I get to that last page. I could do what my cousin-in-law is doing and start reading them all over again. Her theory is that going cold turkey from Christian Grey could be hazardous to your health....and quite frankly I think I agree with that sentiment. I would venture to say that these books are helping many with their BD sessions...although unfortunately we haven't had much luck of that on this end with me being tired from the job and sick with this cold.
Thank you to those of you who still keep up with me. It means a lot that I'm on your hearts and in your minds. An update on my cycle is that I am CD24 and there has been no sign of ovulation so far. I have not started my progesterone cream because I'm hoping that with the LA Diet my cycles might regulate themselves. However, if I don't start AF by CD35 I will get back on the progesterone cream therapy.
Monday, June 4, 2012
My 20 day cycle
Well, today is officially CD3. That means if you are keeping track, last cycle was only 20 days!!! I am not sure if things are trying to get back on track since last cycle was the first since the miscarriage in October, or if the Low Amylose Diet is helping to regulate. I am completely dumbfounded. I did do the Soy Isoflavones last cycle from CD5-CD9. I started progesterone cream on CD12 and have continued that this time even though AF has arrived. Today is 12 days on the cream and I am thinking I will finish up the cream either tonight or tomorrow night.
As for the Soy, I haven't decided if I will do that this cycle or not, but I am convinced that the new low amylose way of living is really helping matters as well.
I have slacked on vlogging with all the interviews I have been on, and the confusion with the cycles. I hope to get a vlog done tonight. Keeping fingers crossed.
On a high note, after 16 months of being out of work, I start a new job next Monday! I am so thankful for this wonderful blessing. It will help in more ways that I can even mention, but two of the most important ways it will help is 1) Taking the stress off my DH of being the only bread winner around here. 2) Having extra $$ to put away to doing another transfer with our two remaining embies (that is if we don't have a miracle natural bfp).
As for the Soy, I haven't decided if I will do that this cycle or not, but I am convinced that the new low amylose way of living is really helping matters as well.
I have slacked on vlogging with all the interviews I have been on, and the confusion with the cycles. I hope to get a vlog done tonight. Keeping fingers crossed.
On a high note, after 16 months of being out of work, I start a new job next Monday! I am so thankful for this wonderful blessing. It will help in more ways that I can even mention, but two of the most important ways it will help is 1) Taking the stress off my DH of being the only bread winner around here. 2) Having extra $$ to put away to doing another transfer with our two remaining embies (that is if we don't have a miracle natural bfp).
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Changing my layout
Please bear with me as I redo my page. I know it might look weird for a little bit as I play around with it, so please don't think I am doing weird things here.
CD11 update
Here we are at CD11. I'm super stoked that tomorrow I can start again with the progesterone cream. I plan on doing that from CD12-CD25 (total of 14 days). Hopefully it will help to get these silly cycles regulated. Surely with the cream, the low amylose diet and some exercise thrown it...the cycles are bound to regulate, right?
I did a CD10 vlog update yesterday, but I am still having issues with getting it uploaded onto Youtube. I haven't given up quite yet, but I am sure not going to wait until CD14 until I get the CD10 vlog uploaded. Haha.
Anyway, just in case I don't get it uploaded, here is a little recap of it.
I have done tons and tons of vlog watching, blog reading, FB page research (from fellow PCOS and TTC ladies) and heard a lot about Soy Isoflavones as a natural Clomid supplement. According to my research, every 200mg is equal to 100mg of Clomid. One woman in particular on youtube took these for one cycle and got her BFP!! So, I thought...what the heck, what could it hurt to try these.
I got this bottle from walmart for just over $6 for 60 pills. Since they are 40mg, I took 5 pills a day from CD5-CD9. I am not holding out too much hope, only because clomid never worked for me in the past, but then again that has been over 10 years ago. I will say that I had noticed some twinges and cramps in the ovary region for the past 3 days or so.
I'm pretty impressed with the results of the LA diet so far. 4 pounds down in a week. It is actually pretty easy to follow. I'm not going to lie, I do miss having potatoes and bread, but the lack of sugar intake hasn't really bothered me much. I have been able to have fruit smoothies just about every morning and some really good sugar free substitutes for my sweet tooth, like sugar free puddings and jell-o.
I did a CD10 vlog update yesterday, but I am still having issues with getting it uploaded onto Youtube. I haven't given up quite yet, but I am sure not going to wait until CD14 until I get the CD10 vlog uploaded. Haha.
Anyway, just in case I don't get it uploaded, here is a little recap of it.
I have done tons and tons of vlog watching, blog reading, FB page research (from fellow PCOS and TTC ladies) and heard a lot about Soy Isoflavones as a natural Clomid supplement. According to my research, every 200mg is equal to 100mg of Clomid. One woman in particular on youtube took these for one cycle and got her BFP!! So, I thought...what the heck, what could it hurt to try these.
I'm pretty impressed with the results of the LA diet so far. 4 pounds down in a week. It is actually pretty easy to follow. I'm not going to lie, I do miss having potatoes and bread, but the lack of sugar intake hasn't really bothered me much. I have been able to have fruit smoothies just about every morning and some really good sugar free substitutes for my sweet tooth, like sugar free puddings and jell-o.
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
CD4 Update
Well, today is CD4 and it seems like it has left the building.
I was pretty surprised that it wasn't any heavier than it was. I was expecting to seem like a stuck pig, but instead it was very scant. I don't know...maybe I should have continued with the progesterone for two additional days, but it's too late for that now.
I have been doing well on the Low Amylose diet and have kept from eating things I shouldn't. It is still early on, and I have got to keep focused. As my blogging friend Carla The Bubblelush has shared her mantra of....
I have taken this mantra and adapted it to my own struggles as well. I invite any of you other TTC ladies to do the same.
I was pretty surprised that it wasn't any heavier than it was. I was expecting to seem like a stuck pig, but instead it was very scant. I don't know...maybe I should have continued with the progesterone for two additional days, but it's too late for that now.
I have been doing well on the Low Amylose diet and have kept from eating things I shouldn't. It is still early on, and I have got to keep focused. As my blogging friend Carla The Bubblelush has shared her mantra of....
I have taken this mantra and adapted it to my own struggles as well. I invite any of you other TTC ladies to do the same.
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Welcoming Aunt Flo...CD1
Just a short update, since it is mother's day and I usually act like a hermit on this holiday, except for my attendance at church.
But...update on the progesterone therapy. CD1 after almost 9 months of nada has arrived thanks to the progesterone cream therapy. I just make a quick youtube update video that I will try to get uploaded tomorrow, but...It is here.
Oh, and I have started a FB page strickly for my TTC and PCOS struggles to keep it off my personal page. Search for me as MrsKC Journtytoconceive! Would love to have you as a friend.
But...update on the progesterone therapy. CD1 after almost 9 months of nada has arrived thanks to the progesterone cream therapy. I just make a quick youtube update video that I will try to get uploaded tomorrow, but...It is here.
Oh, and I have started a FB page strickly for my TTC and PCOS struggles to keep it off my personal page. Search for me as MrsKC Journtytoconceive! Would love to have you as a friend.
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